Monday, November 01, 2004

i hate it

i think i'm sort of frustrated about my living situation. i don't really like being there. ever. pat just called me to remind me about rent and cable money. which is fine. but he said something about marija and nick flipping out about some pots and pans in the sink. OK so i hardly ever eat there. i ate there friday and used a pot, the strainer and a plate. there was much more in the sink thank that. there were ants on the counter i noticed yesterday. i was pretty grossed out and didn't want to go near the sink.

i hate eating there because that stupid dog begs everytime you go to eat something. ugh! why the hell did they get such a big dog? why did they get in like the day after we moved in? why couldn't it wait? i want to live by myself with no roommates, or at least someone i know well enough that i can talk to or something.

i feel like i'm not welcome there at all. seeing marija and nick makes my skin crawl sometimes. i don't really mind pat. he's just a stoner who does his own thing. i just hate being at my house. i feel like when i'm there i have to stay in my room. so marija and nick are close because they are a couple, and pat and nick are close because they are brothers. i'm just this outsider who lives there. i barely live there. i pay to keep my stuff there and shower. i hate buying food because if it's not diet food it's eaten before i can get to it. *sigh* i'm not sure what to do. i don't even want to talk to them.

i hate it so much. i feel like marija talks down to me. it's happened less often since i left starbucks. i hate staying in my room. i usually stay at dan's but i can't stand that because he snores so goddamn loud that it wakes me up and i can't go back to sleep. i think it's only been this bad the last 2 weeks or so, but he seriously sounds like he's going to choke sometimes. picture the person you know who has the worst snoring problem and multiply it by 5. he feels bad. he can't help it. how can anyone help what they do when they are asleep? still, it's pretty bad.

on the upside, jen and annabelle visit in thursday. annabelle crawls now. i'm excited to see her. this should make me feel better

Friday, October 29, 2004

friday is fun

today is a good day for a few reasons.

last night i had fun at our dinner on morgan stanley. turns out the other young people at the office are pretty cool. there were 17 of us who went and only 5 of us were in the under 30 crowd. we went to a pretty expensive restaurant in boston, the chart house. it was a fish place but i didn't have fish of course. people ordered appitizers which were all fish related so i didn't have any. i had 3 martinis which were about $10 each. i felt like having another but i wasn't sure if i should. i had a $30 fillet mingon. along with mashed potatoes and sauteed mushrooms. it was pretty good. for dessert we had these chocolate lava cake things which were excellent. everyone was pretty silly from having drinks so it was a good time. i didn't even get home till after 10.

anyway, as for why today is good...well the obvious is that it is friday and i can sleep as late as i want tomorrow. we were allowed to wear red sox apparel today so i havea red sox t shirt and cords on.
the gay's birthday/halloween party is tonight and it should be a good time. i made caramel apples last night!!! exciting! everyone is going to be in costume. i can't wait to see everyone dressed up. i bought scrubs, i'm going to be a doctor. i need to find a surgical mask! i'd like to have a few drinks but not get wasted. poor dan is sick. i'm not sure if he'll go. i'll have to go by his house since the caramel apples are there. i was afraid my roommates would eat them.

dariusz from work knows someone who works at the state house. there is a red sox rally there today. he brought melissa who is obsessed with varitek with him to meet varitek. that was pretty nice of him. good thing she has her camera with her today. it would be like if i met ben affleck. i'd die happy. no matter what anyone says i think ben still makes quality movies.

not many people are here in the office today. it's pretty quiet. that doesn't bother me much because i just draw or write in this journal or play mah jong tiles. i'm actually sitting on the other side at doris's desk. she is out sick and robert has the day off so they need someone to help out over here. and of course it was me. lovely. i have about 4 hours left. *sigh*

another reason why today is good because i got paid today. this also means i have to pay some bills, but that's OK. i start peet's on sunday and soon i should have a little extra money to blow. yay for that.

yeah so that's enough for today. i'm going to draw animals with a sharpy and hilighters. it will keep me amused for a little while.

the end